Ok, ok.........................I'm back!

...............With not alot to say! But hey, will give it a go!

I have been given the chance to go back to work.

The scary thing is...........it's happening!

It looks as though I am going back in January.

I had intended to stay off for a lot longer than this. Perhaps have another baby, see them both into Nursery school, and perhaps beyond. If I am honest, I wanted to be like my Mum. I was 11 when she went back to work. Realistically, I know that can't happen. I have done well to stay off this long. All my friends with children went back when their children were less than a year old. Sam will be 22 months in January! The money pot is running low though, and with cars to replace and holidays to go on, I am the only person to bring in the extra cash.

Since I found out I was likely to be going back, I have been having sleepless nights (not a problem I usually have, unless Sam is having a bad night).

My worries.
1. I haven't worked for 2 years
2. I haven't actually taught a class for 3 years (I did special needs for a year)
3. I haven't taught in an English school for 5 and a half years (the curriculum is very different in Scotland)
4. I have never taught Year 4
5. I haven't a clue where to start teaching Year 4
6. I don't know the curriculum anymore
7. I am afraid of not being supported by colleagues (very likely at this particular school)
8. I am worried about the behaviour of these kids, and wondering whether I will be able to cope
9. I am worried about the planning
10. I am going to miss my baby boy so much

Over the past few years, I have been wondering whether I am cut out for this profession. Having a baby had been my get out clause. But I have done that, and now it looks as though I will be going back.

I am trying to look forward to it, but I feel as though I am stepping into the unknown. I am stepping out of my comfort zone, and I don't do that very well at all.

This is the second time I have been given this chance, though, and I feel as though God is telling me to take it this time.

I hope they are nice to me!